The outcome

Days go by so quick. We can easily let it pass without doing much, yet we do a lot. We go on as though we have no choice. We plan things, we work, and we focus. Many things happen in a day, a day’s work can even change our lives forever. We wake up to accomplish a lot, we sleep to wake up the next day and accomplish even more. We live a lot of days, do a lot of things. Why exactly are we doing all that we are doing? The same schedule that we force ourselves to follow each day, the determination to do all that we think we should be doing, tuning our heads in such a way that we see only things that we think we should see and feel only things that we think we should feel. How would we live our days if we had spent our entire childhood in isolation, growing up and learning things on our own, living life on our terms, literally. I wonder, maybe then we would know our true selves, with no external influences, would we still turn out to be the good selves that we now are? What does it mean to know yourself, when you are nothing but the result of everything that is around you, everything that has inevitably affected and influenced you? You wouldn’t be you if you weren’t born where you were born. So, you are just the outcome of the things around you, the people who lived before you and the things that they did. We are nothing but a result of many odd events; we lose all our instincts, the raw element. We are all about our past.

So, can I say that it is not us who are distinct and unique but the odd events that caused us? Yes, I am saying that again. “I am not distinct, the odd events that caused me are.” The product of the odd events that will continue to happen and of which I would be a big part too, will be the next set of people who come in to this planet. I can’t promise them anything, I can’t promise myself anything, I have no control over anything as it is all external. Like math, division of a huge number into the smallest digit, do we all become lesser in value as each generation goes by? The number of odd events multiplies itself and increase in number and the result that they produce divides itself and become lesser, is that how it works? Is humanity diminishing with time?

However, we have got the privilege to be the result of all that we are; we are the unique outcome of many unique events. I know, I am contradicting myself here. I should probably rephrase the earlier said statement; “I am the unique outcome of many unique events”. The result that we are of whichever odd problem needs understanding. So maybe, ‘know yourself’ means, ‘know what you have become’. The original ‘you’ is long gone, it has hardly had any existence. It is all about what ‘you’ have become.

You are the altered version of yourself that you were supposed to be; you can alter it further, how much ever you want. Become a good person, a better one, bad or worse, it is all up to you now. Living your days the way you want to live is also up to you, yes you have lost the natural instinct, but you sure can manage.